Something in the air tonight...

I had a great Memorial Day weekend. I spent it mostly with my son, chillin in Amelia Earhart Park on Saturday, going to Muvico to watch MIB3 on Sunday, and today, our pool and a barbecue in our house in Hialeah. Life could not be better. It's usually on these days that I feel it, love. Love, God, Life Energy, I feel it most on these days. It can be so intense that I keep myself busy to not become overwhelmed by it and cry. Life is so beautiful because it is so fleeting, so precious. Whether we treat it as such, as human beings, it does not take away from the fact that it is so valuable. That we, as humans, fail to see its value is another thing entirely. To those of us that do see it, we can also feel it, the love that binds us and makes us so precious. Enjoy each moment, each breath each embrace with a loved one. Each one is unique, a miracle, something to be felt with the heart. Love.

Creating My Life.

Well folks, at 34 years old, I have been through a lot. I have made numerous 180 degree turns in thought and action. I have come to several conclusions about myself in the process.
1. I am a square peg in a round hole world. My viewpoints and motivations for action are very different than a lot of people. Many people therefore have a hard time understanding me.
2. I am definitely not an elitist. I root for the underdog, always.
3. I do not like monotony.
4. I love to travel.
5. I have a talent for writing and for crafts.
6. I definitely need to go into business for myself. I have the right personality to be my own boss.
7. I love following fashion.
I have written a novelette. It is only 100 pages long about a period in my life that only lasted four years. I dedicated my life to partying on South Beach and was a nihilist at point in time. I had no desire to care for my future self and as a result almost ruined my future possibilities for advancement in the "Straight World," as we called the normal humdrum life of most people.
So here I am, living the humdrum life; married with kids and a mortgage. I have a normal job, highly educated, Masters level and still feeling like something is missing. I still am not living at peak potential and that is going to take me taking my fate into my own hands. I have to create my life by my own rules. This square peg is not fitting right into the preconceptions of others of how things are supposed to be. So watch for me folks. Gigi Love is breaking out and creating her future.

Adele

I absolutely love Adele the singer. She has an incredible voice. I absolutely love all her songs. It definitely could have been the soundtrack to my life from 15 to 24. Her voice is hauntingly beautiful. I want to cry just listening to her music. I want to learn piano just to play all the parts since I cannot sing!

Who Am I?

You know, for the most part I have tried to live as authentic a life as possible. With the exception of love, I have lived by my will and rules. Who am I then? I still do not know exactly what it is I am meant to do on this Earth. I only pray everyday for guidance. As Steve Job said in that now famous commencement address to Stanford, "You will know it when You find it." Like love. I have begun to really examine myself after a lifetime of examining other people. I have been delving into myself, taking note when things peak my interest and what horrifies or excites me. Who am I? It is time for a rebirth. I have actually for the first time thought about getting a tattoo. A tattoo of a Phoenix, who was born and died in a blaze of fire. I feel a burn coming on. t2ul8r!

The Second Season of My Life

Dear Universe,
Candy, my coworker of over 8 years retired recently. She turns 62 on June 16, 2011 and will be moving to Vina del Mar, Chile, by the beach into a big house. I took over her position as data processor for the company. Though the position is a step up and away from being chained to the phone, it is not Human Resources, the field I want to get into. I took it for the pay and for the break from the phone. I took her leaving hard, harder than I expected. I actually cried when she left. Her leaving was a reminder of many endings in my life in recent years, the end of my first season of life. Once single , I am now married, once a renter, now I own, once childless, I have a child, and now a new job. I cried because I will miss her and I cried because, I couldn't believe it had been 8 years already at the same company. I want to retire abroad as she did, but not from this company. If I changed so much in five years, I will change even more in the next five. We will open our first business in five, and be real estate moguls in ten. I was very depressed until I got a goal, and that is my goal, to be in business for myself. With God's help I will. Till next time.
-Hialeah Girl

Now What?

I feel hopeless. Utterly alone and smiling to lift myself from the coming depression. Is it my period or is it just a feeling of stagnation garnered from days of inescapable duties and automation? My alone lights are my son and husband. They should encompass my whole world no? Then why do I sense a gnawing feeling of incompleteness eating away at me? I am capable of so much, yet I am stuck in mediocrity at work roaming aimlessly for my true life's purpose. Where do I go from here? Now what?

I did it baby! We got the house!!!

To all my beautiful readers whom i have neglected with updates of my life, my husband and I were able to purchase a home. We are ecstatic to say the least. It is a small cozy home on a double corner lot in Hialeah. It boasts a renovated kitchen and bathroom (one!)We were able to get an above ground pool and a patio that is half concrete. It's home period. Over time, my hubby and I will get it just right. We are praying for a joyful holiday season in our house. There is plenty of room for everyone. Time to get to work on it! Thanks for reading.